Typings

Here we go arial font. I used to hate arial font but now for the same reason I hate arial font I love it now. It was the same thing for the likes of Phil Collins and the likes of bands like Def Leapord and Devo! It only took like a few extra decades to let them grow on me...I still hate them in a way. Um. I have this weird anxiety about making videos on youtube where I just sit and talk because usually when I get around to it I'm to tired to be interesting. I recently announced that I would only put up cartoons on my youtube davidhok channel. I have a secondary channel called therealdavidhok where I have promised to put thoughts about my life but I really don't want to very much...So anyhow. Today I was at school. Im at this really cool point in graphics and Flash animated web buttonish stuff where people are really digging my stuff. Like everytime I come to school I have more of my animation stuff done and so people sort of gather around my computer to watch the animation stuff Ive done...I enjoy doing it a lot. There is this feeling I get thats like a double edged sword. They are saying things like amazing, or really good work. So then I feel good. But then its like this wierd insecure part of me pops up this feeling like I shouldnt be so proud. And then I feel bad. Feeling good is probably good for your body and soul. Like hilarious laughter at something. But what is it when I want to hide that feeling from others. Its like I dont want to enjoy the moment so much outwardly so that those sensitive people get jealous. Plus It just seems like yea me. I think the cure for whatever is to stop thinking about it and keep moving on to the next great feeling project. Because its going to fade if I gawk at my own awesomeness. Some times when people compliment me I just try to 1 up there compliment and say "ya I know Im really good right?" and just look at them smiling. And then they either think your an ego maniac or they get that your just playing. I want to keep enjoying my life so I want to keep working on things that make me feel good. For me that is animating in flash right now...